Alone

My son is asleep with a cold, my wife is at a party with her coworkers, and I'm sitting here by myself contemplating getting a drink or smoking a joint. I'm also listening to my son cough in his bedroom, being fearful of swine flu, and wondering if my wife is sleeping with someone else. Crazy like a rabid fox I am.

It would be easy to get a drink or a fatty right now. If my wife comes home she will probably be drunk and would never know the difference, but I would. Tomorrow I would feel more like a loser than ever and then get a job interview with a drug test. Total waste it would be.

Well, I've talked myself out of the intoxicants, but still worried about my son and what my wife is doing. I will check him throughout the night and hope he's OK. As for her- it would probably be for the best anyway, I'm beginning to get tired of her and her attitude. Freedom would be nice; however, not seeing my son everyday would crush my soul. Caught in a bind I guess.

Love for my son comes first so to hell with her and her issues, I've got my own to deal with right now.