Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Acupuncture
Went to acupuncture again today. It really makes a difference. Seem a lot calmer- whether its sub-concious or real I don't care right now. It is definitely nice to feel a little peace.
Anniversay
Yesterday was my 3 month anniversary of sobriety. Strange as it was, I seemed depressed all day and then had back issues all night. You wuld think since I made it 3 months it would be a great day; but it wasn't. I couldn't get focused on any particular path, think positive thoughts, or feel excited about anything. Maybe I just need to think happy thoughts... go to my happy place... feel my qi flow from goodness. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. I know what I need- a job I enjoy (still unemployed. I've paid my dues.), intimacy with my wife, and to win the lottery. Shhh, did you hear that? I think hell just froze over.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Media Predictions & My Thoughts on Greed
Heard on the news this morning that they are predicting the stock market to fall again pretty hard and our recovery to stall. Isn't that just ducky! I wish the government would get their nose out of the economy, cut taxes, and let us move on. This socialistic attitude is making me nervous. I've been sober long enough to become bored and I need to go back to work. Time to tell you guys what I think and why. The synopsis:
I lost my second job in two years a while back, not because I am lazy or didn’t apply myself; but because the market conditions couldn’t support my position. The document supplied by my former employer read, “Lack of work”. I am supposed to submit this to my local unemployment agency when I swallow my pride and file for unemployment wages. Then I can relax and find a new job because everyone knows that $250- $300 a week can supply the average families needs. Nothing to worry about, right?
My trade is construction. The art of building homes for the residential sector of our nation. Residential construction is one of the last products made in the US. It is one of the driving forces of our economy. It is the suppliers of the American dream- get a job, buy a home, and fill it with 2.5 children and a dog. I have been in this line of work for most of my life, from working at a sawmill, to creating multi-million dollar homes for the rich and elite. I have laid brick, engineered structural flooring systems, project managed 15,000 square foot homes, and most recently sold tile flooring. My resume is deep but does me no good because construction is at a halt. Who is to blame for this? Is it me? Is it the government? Or is it the population of the US in general?
The first person responsible for this predicament is you. By saying you I also mean me, us, we, the American society in general. Our greed has culminated this economic recession. Get what’s good for me and to hell with everyone else. I need a bigger house and a nicer car, my child needs the $100 pair of shoes to impress his classmates, my wife deserves that big diamond in the display case at the jewelry store. Therefore, I must work harder and longer to pay for all the excess I don’t need. At this point, you have forgotten your responsibility to monitor your government. The government works to secure their future and keep the politicians in a job. Their greed. They don’t care about you, the middleman, because its big business that supports them through lobbyists. Politicians have grown government to support politicians- their job security.
Politician’s greed is the next culprit. How can they grow government to secure their big houses and nice cars? Taxation and government control. However, they do throw us a few “bones” every now and then to keep us satiated. Take the “bone” of allowing everyone to own his or her own home. It was a grand idea and supported me for years. Only greed got in the way, big business gave a loan to anyone, bigger houses were built and bought, then it all went sour and the foreclosures skyrocketed. The result- I'm on unemployment and you are renting an apartment because you couldn’t make the payments on your home.
The next culprit- forgetting God and why he made us. God created man out of love. Do we have love anymore in the sense of what it truly is? Do you love your big house more than your neighbor? How about that car in the driveway, do you love it or your wife? Do you love money more than the Lord above? Written on the piece of paper you worship is the phrase “In God We Trust”, do you trust God or that piece of paper? God created man to toil the soil, to hunt, to gather, to war against what is wrong; however, he also gave us free will. Free will allowed us to change our battle into materialistic gain; henceforth the bigger house that I built and you bought. Now you sit behind a desk 80 hours a week working for big business while your family worships what that piece of paper bought.
Yes, greed. Greed has killed the American society. Greed for materialistic gain, greed for ego, greed for getting what I want, you want, the politicians want. Greed kills, it saps us of moralistic endeavors, and it rapes our land. When we as a people realize that then we will prevail, our economy can change, and I can return to work. Until then I will greedily suck my share from unemployment and watch as my dream also goes into foreclosure. Good luck America, in greed we fall.
I lost my second job in two years a while back, not because I am lazy or didn’t apply myself; but because the market conditions couldn’t support my position. The document supplied by my former employer read, “Lack of work”. I am supposed to submit this to my local unemployment agency when I swallow my pride and file for unemployment wages. Then I can relax and find a new job because everyone knows that $250- $300 a week can supply the average families needs. Nothing to worry about, right?
My trade is construction. The art of building homes for the residential sector of our nation. Residential construction is one of the last products made in the US. It is one of the driving forces of our economy. It is the suppliers of the American dream- get a job, buy a home, and fill it with 2.5 children and a dog. I have been in this line of work for most of my life, from working at a sawmill, to creating multi-million dollar homes for the rich and elite. I have laid brick, engineered structural flooring systems, project managed 15,000 square foot homes, and most recently sold tile flooring. My resume is deep but does me no good because construction is at a halt. Who is to blame for this? Is it me? Is it the government? Or is it the population of the US in general?
The first person responsible for this predicament is you. By saying you I also mean me, us, we, the American society in general. Our greed has culminated this economic recession. Get what’s good for me and to hell with everyone else. I need a bigger house and a nicer car, my child needs the $100 pair of shoes to impress his classmates, my wife deserves that big diamond in the display case at the jewelry store. Therefore, I must work harder and longer to pay for all the excess I don’t need. At this point, you have forgotten your responsibility to monitor your government. The government works to secure their future and keep the politicians in a job. Their greed. They don’t care about you, the middleman, because its big business that supports them through lobbyists. Politicians have grown government to support politicians- their job security.
Politician’s greed is the next culprit. How can they grow government to secure their big houses and nice cars? Taxation and government control. However, they do throw us a few “bones” every now and then to keep us satiated. Take the “bone” of allowing everyone to own his or her own home. It was a grand idea and supported me for years. Only greed got in the way, big business gave a loan to anyone, bigger houses were built and bought, then it all went sour and the foreclosures skyrocketed. The result- I'm on unemployment and you are renting an apartment because you couldn’t make the payments on your home.
The next culprit- forgetting God and why he made us. God created man out of love. Do we have love anymore in the sense of what it truly is? Do you love your big house more than your neighbor? How about that car in the driveway, do you love it or your wife? Do you love money more than the Lord above? Written on the piece of paper you worship is the phrase “In God We Trust”, do you trust God or that piece of paper? God created man to toil the soil, to hunt, to gather, to war against what is wrong; however, he also gave us free will. Free will allowed us to change our battle into materialistic gain; henceforth the bigger house that I built and you bought. Now you sit behind a desk 80 hours a week working for big business while your family worships what that piece of paper bought.
Yes, greed. Greed has killed the American society. Greed for materialistic gain, greed for ego, greed for getting what I want, you want, the politicians want. Greed kills, it saps us of moralistic endeavors, and it rapes our land. When we as a people realize that then we will prevail, our economy can change, and I can return to work. Until then I will greedily suck my share from unemployment and watch as my dream also goes into foreclosure. Good luck America, in greed we fall.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday Again & Feelin Pretty Good
Actually feel pretty good today. I went out last night to see Blues Traveler and didn't drink. I was nervous at first seeing it was my first sober concert; but it went smooth and I had a great time.
Went to see my shrinky-dink this morning and he said I was doing well except for my anger issues concerning sex. Said I needed to lay it by the wayside and wait on her for as long as I can. Once I'm done then decide about leaving. I shouldn't act like a soothsayer and expect my mind to know what is going to happen. So I'm kicking back right now.
Still need work, ain't got it, but doing all I can.
Sobriety now- serenity later!
Went to see my shrinky-dink this morning and he said I was doing well except for my anger issues concerning sex. Said I needed to lay it by the wayside and wait on her for as long as I can. Once I'm done then decide about leaving. I shouldn't act like a soothsayer and expect my mind to know what is going to happen. So I'm kicking back right now.
Still need work, ain't got it, but doing all I can.
Sobriety now- serenity later!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
It Might Get Loud
I just got back home from It Might Get Loud. Wonderful, in awe, one of the best rock documentaries I've ever seen. Jimmy Page was my hero, and still is. The Edge has brought a new light to me. I always loved U2, but Bono has always overshadowed him. Jack White is good, but doesn't hold a candle to Jimmy. Loved it, loved it, loved it.
Friday, September 25, 2009
I GIVE UP
I can't take it anymore! I quit drinking, go to this acupuncture crap, hide my feelings, bow down to my wife for everything and I'm completely sick of it. She is the biggest bitch I have ever met! It doesn't matter what I do or say, I am always wrong. She is not worth my happiness and sanity. As soon as I get a job, I am leaving.
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